Poems

Crying On The Inside

how can i sleep tonight?
how
how can i when i no i am going to wake up the same way tomorrow?
i fear tomorrow...
i no im going to wake up to this life of mine in which i wished was just an illusion just a dream
all day i go
without a simple hello
which would simply make my day
just to see and hear someone say
i care, ill be there
maybe just maybe someone who loved me?
is that to much to ask?
if it is im sorry its not like i ever asked for anything else
the loneliness kills me
all day i go
and no one ever knows
im crying on the inside
I CANT EVEN PRETEND ANYMORE!
I CANT FUCKIN FAKE A SMILE
I CANT FUCKING FAKE IM OK...
people lie to me
people cheat me
....when all i want is for them to be a friend
IM SORRY I DONT NO WHAT I DID BUT I APOLOGIZE
...for everything ive done
everything i havent done
...everything i have yet to do
i am terrified i dont know wat to do with wat im feeling
who can i talk to if i have no one?
i only no to hurt myself.
i only no to cut and carve wat i feel...
all my pain
all my depression
all my agression into me
my legs, my wrists, my arms..
oh god why me...
just kill me
oh god why me...
JUST FUCKING TAKE AWAY MY LIFE OF MISERY
wat person derserves to live like this....
im not a person im worthless shit...
im just a waste, i dont want to continue to live
if i'll never be something or someone
my fear of tomorrow has overtaken and won.

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Broken soul

Blaming the world for all her pain,
Every ones against her in her head,
The lights went out long ago,
Left in the dark scared and dead.

She once felt love,
But now all she feels is hate,
Denying lifes course,
Forever blaming fate.

Afraid of the dark,
Left alone with insanity,
Her soul is broke,
She has no faith in humanity.

Broken heart,
A broken wing,
Forever running,
Trapped in an endless ring.

Always crying,
But no one will hear,
She misses him so much,
Now her only friend is fear.

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Bleed

My third poem,
Dedicated to you,
To say I'm sorry for what I did,
And what I'm about to do,
I'm sorry for being a jerk,
I should have been nice,
I'm sorry if I called you a "bitch",
And I'm sorry twice,
I am a fool,
For causing you pain,
Now thinking of it,
I've gone insane,
I shall avenge what I did,
I will take my life,
I shall slit my throat,
Cut deep with this knife,
I'm sorry if I ever,
Made you cry,
I can understand,
If you want me to die,
I'm sorry again,
But with my death,
My evil will leave with my life,
No sin shall be left,
I know nothing I do,
Will forgive my deed,
To let out my sins,
I start to Bleed...

"Sometimes I remember
When we were together
Everything was perfect
In each and every way
You loved me forever, and more each day

I should have known
It was too good to be true
I held my head high
And tried and tried, to say goodbye
I thought about our memories
And all the good times
The times I had you So tight in my arms

And knew that it was true
That I'd love you forever and that's what I'll do "

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~*~*Have u eva*~*~
have u eva just sat n cried
all because the one you love lied
have u ever wondered y should i try
when all that boy does is make me cry

have u ever just played your part
even though u knew he'd been cheatin on u from da start
have u eva loved somebody in every way
to da point u didn't know what to say

have u ever just came apart
because the one u loved played with ur heart
have u eva wished upon a star
but that wish never went very far

have u eva laid down at night
and thought why did I start that stupid fight
have u eva felt used
and all this time been confused

have u eva felt like giving up
when u had ur gurlz beside u alwayz cheering u up
r u tired of writing ur 1st name with his last
knowing it will neva be
~*~*~* me too *~*~*~

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"As my heart lies in broken pieces upon the ground,
You don't even know the pieces exist.
As my tears fall like liquid diamonds upon my cheeks,
You don't even feel the pain I am going through.
You don't even know about
The broken pieces of the heart that still loves you
And that always will.
As my voice echoes through the silent atmosphere,
You don't even hear the resounding cry.
As the mist swirls silently around me, chilling the tears,
You don't even care that I suffer the agony of lost love.
You wouldn't even look back
To see the pale face of the girl who loved you
And who always will."

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"I'm giving up on loving
you I cant take the pain you've put me through

Deep down I know the feelings are always there

Maybe someday you will care
At least for now I can hide my pain
I know if I dont, I'll go insane
Our time apart has made me realize
There is no second chance when it comes to guys

I almost had you back one time
But of course, you changed your mind
The many excuses that you have told
Are getting lame and really old
We never talk anymore
Its like a room to ur life and u've slammed the door

It hurts to know you've shut me out

Now I know wut love is all about
You're happy then u cry and cry
Where there was truth becomes all lies
All in all it never ends for good
But then again, who thought it would?"

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these are from someone who WAS special to me (Get over your self i dont like you no more) ------------------------------------------------------------------

An Angel Is What I'll Be

If I had a choice
An angel's what I'd be,
And everything that happened
I'd be there to see,

You'd be right there with me
To wrap my wings around,
Only you would know I'm there
For I wouldn't make a sound,

I would see ahead of you
To help direct your path,
I'd always be there with you
You'd never have to ask,

I'd be there protecting you
And keeping you from harm,
For nothing is too hard for me
With my loving arms,

When you have somewhere to go
I'll be with you in flight,
I'll also be there protecting
In the middle of the night,

So if I had a choice
An angel's what I'd be,
I'd be right there beside you
Helping you so see

------------------------------------------------------------------ ~ Thank You ~ Thank you for the love you've shown me. Thank you for setting a good example for me. Thank you for forgiving me when I did wrong. Thank you for teaching me the lessons of life. Thank you for helping me set goals. Thank you for sharing in my accomplishments. Thank you for giving me a shoulder to lean on. Thank you for making my life easier. Thank you for caring about me. Thank you for spending time with me. Thank you for always being there when I need you. Thank you for being my friend. Thank You For Everything! ------------------------------------------------------------------ I can't afford those fancy things, Vacations, cars, or jewels... I have nothing else to offer but this love I send to you. I have given some to others And each time has been unique, For love means something different Depending on what you seek. It's something you keep in your heart To hold when you're alone, But never is it on display, Its beauty never shown. I give it to you "No strings attached", No costly warranty, But this love that I am sending Has a lifetime guarantee! I LOVE YOU!! ------------------------------------------------------------------ May angels whisper in your ear, May they touch you when you need, May they take from you each trace of fear, and inspire you to succeed. May they fill you with their presence, May they show you love untold, May they always stand beside you And make you ever bold. May they teach you what you need to know About life and the hereafter. May they fill you always with their love and bring you joy and laughter ------------------------------------------------------------------ Love Is You Love is the way you make someone feel, the way someone makes you feel. Love is the sharing and the caring, the want and the need. Love is not just a word; love is a power with unknown strengths. It has the power to make someone smile, to make someone laugh, to make someone love you in return. Love is what your heart feels, what your heart says. Ignore your heart and it will fade away. Listen to your heart, follow your heart, let it sing. Let it run free and it can bring you anything Love is a bond, a way to keep people together. Love is everything wonderful. Love is you.